Wednesday, June 2, 2010
It is a fact of life for boys here in our country to be circumcise. And my boys (all 3 of them) were no exemptions. I am having difficulty understanding why do boys need to be circumcised but I cannot do anything about it. I have to go with the flow. So, I pushed it out of my head for a while but 11 years after, my son requested that we schedule him for one! I think it was peer pressure. And my son was ready!
It was the most "i-dont-know-what-you-call-it" feeling I ever felt! Seeing my son going to the Operating Room all by himself and I just sit there in the waiting area waiting, and waiting, and waiting. Boy! it was the longest 30-minutes of my life!
I was scared for my son. I was scared of what he is going to feel. I was scared that a doctor might hurt(of course there is an anesthesia) my son. I was scared of the healing process my son will go through.
But reality really hurts! I WAS SCARED BECAUSE MY SON IS NOT A BABY ANYMORE!
I think circumcision is a sign that the kid is growing up. A sign that the little boy is not there anymore. A sign of manhood.
I cried to myself that night because I can see the pain he is going through. I cried because I cannot do anything about it. I cried because he is growing up and will start to experience what life really is. I cried because I may not have given him the proper tools he needs to face the real world. I cried because I may have to let go of my son and let him experience life on his own.
On the otherhand, although my son is experiencing some pain, I can see that he is proud of what he has accomplished. He has survived the pain of circumcision! By God's grace, I know he will survive life's challenges. We, as parents, will only be here to support him. Good luck, my boy! I love you!
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